| Sucking at life. |
[Apr. 2nd, 2008|05:16 pm] |
Emo moment:
How can I worry too much when it's all caving in and there's no room left to stand?
End of emo moment.. |
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| Killer Bees? |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|04:56 pm] |
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| |  I am Socrates? | ] |
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| | I Predict a Riot - Kaiser Chiefs | ] |
I'm supposed to be doing mad homework right now, but, as usual I'm procrastinating by doing something else. Usually my drug of choice is Facebook, but, if I do that then I'm going to end up adding this sweet little program that allows you to edit your photos and make them look all cool and--yeah, well, it's just not a good idea.
Saw my professor walking down the street on my way to the library. He was with an ugly women. Like, really ugly. If he's cheating on me with a large ugly woman I'm going to have to kill her. And him. And then commit suicide in the middle of Longfellow Square declaring my eternal love for Machiavelli and socialism while running around naked with the words "Killer Bees!" spray painted on my body in neon green spray paint...while killing puppies.
Poor puppies. |
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| Bringing Back LJ |
[Feb. 17th, 2008|12:44 am] |
EIGHT last's:
8. last cigarette: Katie's Birthday.
7. last beverage: Pepsi to stay awake. (It's working.)
6. last phone call: Ryan J.W.
5. last text message: Jameseses.
3. last BUBBLE bath: Not a clue.
2. last time you cried: Today. With both happiness and sadness, though not at the same time.
1. last person you hugged: Ross?
SEVEN have you's:
7. have you ever dated someone twice?: Oh yes.
6. have you ever been cheated on?: Yes.
4. have you ever fallen in love?: I don't know?
3. have you ever lost someone?: Yes.
2. have you ever been depressed?: Who hasn't?
1. have you ever had a heartbreak?: Who hasn't?
SIX things you did in the past three days:
6. Went to school: Yessss...ugggghhhh...
5. Went to work: Just today!
4. Colored: Yesterday?
3. Got drunk: Nopers.
2. Slept: Haha, don't be silly. I don't have time for sleep!
1. Hurt yourself: Uhh...I trip on things a lot.
THIS YEAR...
Made a new friend: I believe so.
Fallen out of love: Have to be in it to fall out.
Laughed until you cried?: Just tonight!
Gotten close to someone: I'd like to think so.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF..
1. Bush?: What kind?
2. Gay Marriage: Why not?
3. Lowering the drinking age?: I see no reason for or against it. If people are going to drink they're going to drink; our culture is addicted and out of control enough as it is--lowering the drinking age probably won't help matters much on either end.
ABOUT YOU:
4. Straight, Gay, Bi?: Let's just say I don't discriminate and am open to all opportunities. I also don't believe in labels, thanks.
5. Who is the best hugger that you know?: All hugs are amazing.
6. Do you believe in love at first sight?: No way.
7. Is there something you want to tell someone?: Maybe. Would I really post it here?
8. what kinda shirt are you wearing? Free People hoodie. Yummy.
9. How many kids do you want to have?: No more than two if any at all. I like adoption.
10. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)? Uhhh...define "good"...
11. Do you want to change your name?: Yes. Christ. There are enough "Jess"'s in the world.
12. What did you do for your last birthday?: Don't remember. I think I felt really sick and was in a crappy play.
13. What time did you wake up today?: About 9 A.M.
14. What were you doing at ten last night?: Watching movies.
15. Name something you CANNOT wait to do?: Be done with work tomorrow so I can FINALLY EXPERIENCE VACATION!
16. Last time you saw your father?: Ummm...the other day?
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Not so winter.
19. What are you listening to right now?: Magic meowing.
21. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back?: Who hasn't.
22. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?: Uhhh...Katie's bra.
23. Who's getting on your nerves right now?: Ross breathing down my neck.
24. Most visited webpage?: Facebook, haha.
25. Coke or Pepsi?: Pepsi, but both are kinda gross.
26. Do you have a crush?: Naw. Except for on my professor, maybe...Sigh.
27. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week?: Yummy. Of Course.
28. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? Ummm heeello. Sociology major--OF course I do!
29. Do you think there's some models/people out there that should gain a couple pounds?: I think there is a lot wrong with the corporate imaging and advertising campaigns in this country.
30. Do you enjoy your friendship with your friends?: What a silly question. Of course I don't, I hate my friends. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 29th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
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Why does this hurt so much. |
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| To quote RBF: |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|12:23 am] |
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...Why DO I rock so hard?? |
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| I suck at life... Read my other entry. It gets worse for me. And you, for that matter. |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|12:50 am] |
if you’ve seen over 80 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you’ve seen. There are 190 movies on this list. Put your score in header and repost:
(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
( )The Mexican
(x)Fight Club
( x)Starsky and Hutch
( x)Blazing Saddles
(x)Garden State
(x)The Princess Bride
(x)Young Frankenstein
(x)Anchor Man
(x)Napoleon Dynamite
( x)Saw
(x )White noise
( x)White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
(x)Fever Pitch
(x)The Matrix
total here: 15
()50 First Dates
( )Jason
( x)Scream
( x)Scream 2
( x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
( x)Scary Movie 3
( )American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x)American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
(x )Harry Potter 4
( )Resident Evil 1
( x)Resident Evil 2
( x)The Wedding Singer
( x)Little Black Book
total here: 15
(x)The Village
(x)Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x )Finding Neverland
( )13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( )White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
( x)Thirteen going on 30
( )I,Robot
(x)Dodgeball
( )Universal Soldier
(x)A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
(x )Deep impact
total here: 11
( )King Pin
( x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet the Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
( x)A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( x)Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
( )Final Destination
( x)Final Destination 2
( x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
( x)The Ring 2
( )Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
( )Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
( x)Ghost Ship
(x )From Hell
(x)Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
( )The Whole Nine Yards
( )The Whole Ten Yards
( x)The Day After Tomorrow
( )Child's Play
( )Bride of Chucky
( x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x )Just Married
( )Gothika
( x)Nightmare on Elm Street
( x)Sixteen Candles
( )Bad boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( )Joy Ride
( )Seven
(x)Oceans Eleven
( )Oceans Twelve
(x )Identity
total here: 23
( )Lone Star
( )Predator I
( )Predator II
(x)Independence Day
( )Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
( )Dark City
( )Christine
(x)ET
( x)The Professional (Leon)
(x)My Big Fat Greek Wedding
( )Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x )She's All That
( x)Calendar Girls
(x)Sideways
( x)Mars Attacks
total here: 9
( )Event Horizon
(x )Ever after
( x)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-Men 1
(x)X-Men 2
( )Catch Me If You Can
( x)The Others
( x)Freaky Friday
(x )Ring of Fire
( )The Hot Chick
( x)Swimfan
( )Miracle
(x)Old School
( )Ray
( x)The Notebook
( )K-Pax
( x)King Arthur
total here: 11
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( x)A Walk to remember
( x)Boogeyman
(x)Hitch
( )The Fifth Element
(x)Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x)Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x)Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi...
( )Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
( )Air Force One
( )For Richer or Poorer
( )People Under the Stairs
( )Blue Velvet
( x)Sound of Music
( x)Parent Trap
( )The Burbs
( )The Terminator
( )Empire Records
( )Meet Joe Black
(x )The Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
(x)Amelie
( x)Star Trek: Nemesis
( )What's Eating Gilbert Grape
total here: 19
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
(x)The Incredibles
( )Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
( x)2 Fast 2 Furious
( )Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
( x)Closer
( )While You Were Sleeping
total here: 7
( x)Titanic
(x )Saved!
(x)Boondock Saints
( )Bowling For Columbine
(x)Fahrenheit 9/11
(x)The Sixth Sense
( )Artificial Intelligence (AI)
(x)Love Actually
( )Shutter
( x)Ella Enchanted
( x)Princess Diaries 1
( x)Princess Diaries 2
(x)Constantine
( x)Million Dollar Baby
( )Envy
(x)Eurotrip
( x)Malibu's Most Wanted
(x)Big Daddy
( )Black Sheep
( x)The Breakfast Club
( x)West Side Story
( x)Moulin rouge
( x)The Phantom of the Opera
(x )The Party
total here: 9
(x)A Christmas Story
(x)Spanglish
( x)Pulp Fiction
( )Sleepover
(x)The Evil Dead
( )Killer Clowns From Outer Space
( )The Seed of Chucky
( )Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
(x )Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
( x)Interview With The Vampire
( x)The Crow
( )Purple Rain
(x)Wayne's world
( )Six String Samurai
total here: 8
(x)Wayne's World 2
( )21 Grams
( )Blow
( x)Edward Scissorhands
(x )Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
( x)Guess Who
( x)Monster In-Law
(x)Elf
( x)Stuart Little
( )Stuart Little 2
(x)Chasing Amy
(x)Dogma
(x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
( )The Incredible Adventures of Wallace and Gromit
total here: 12
(x )Beetlejuice
( )The Last Samurai
(x)The Amityville Horror (old or new)
( )The Aviator
( x)Romeo and Juliet
( )Barbershop
( )Barbershop 2
(x )Legally Blonde
( )Legally Blonde 2
( )The Forgotten
( x)Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
(x)The Grudge
( x)National Treasure
total here: 7
( ) The Godfather (1972)
(x) The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
( ) The Godfather: Part II (1974)
( ) Shichinin no samurai (Seven Samurai) (1954) 41,687
( ) Schindler's List (1993) 118,009
( x) Casablanca (1942) 79,482
total here: 2
( ) Buono, il brutto, il cattivo, Il (1966)
( ) One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)
( ) Rear Window (1954)
( ) Cidade de Deus (City of God) (2002)
( ) The Usual Suspects (1995)
(x) Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
( ) 12 Angry Men (1957)
( ) Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
total here: 1
( ) Citizen Kane (1941)
(x ) Memento (2000) 1
( x) Psycho (1960)
( ) Goodfellas (1990)
( ) C'era una volta il West (1968)
( ) North by Northwest (1959)
( ) The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
( ) Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
( ) Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, Le (2001)
(x) It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
total here: 3
( ) Sunset Blvd. (1950)
( x) American Beauty (1999)
( ) Vertigo (1958)
( ) Taxi Driver (1976)
( ) Apocalypse Now (1979)
( ) Paths of Glory (1957)
( ) To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
total here: 1
( ) Untergang, Der (2004)
( ) Se7en (1995)
( ) The Pianist (2002)
( ) Chinatown (1974)
(x) Léon (1994)
(x ) Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (Spirited Away) (2001)
( ) Hotel Rwanda (2004)
( ) American History X (1998) 76,670
( ) The Third Man (1949)
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
total here: 3
( ) Boot, Das (1981)
( ) Requiem for a Dream (2000)
( ) The Maltese Falcon (1941)
( ) L.A. Confidential (1997)
( ) Rashômon (1950)
( ) The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
( ) The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
( ) Alien (1979)
(x) Sin City (2005)
( ) A Clockwork Orange (1971)
total here: 1
( ) M (1931)
( x) Singin' in the Rain (1952)
( ) Modern Times (1936)
( x) Reservoir Dogs (1992)
(x) Saving Private Ryan (1998)
( ) Metropolis (1927)
( x) All About Eve (1950)
( ) Raging Bull (1980)
( ) The Manchurian Candidate (1962)
total here: 4
( ) The Shining (1980)
( x) Some Like It Hot (1959)
( ) Double Indemnity (1944)
( ) Vita è bella, La (1997)
( ) The Great Escape (1963)
(x) The Incredibles (2004)
( ) Rebecca (1940)
( x) Amadeus (1984)
( ) Touch of Evil (1958)
total here: 3
( ) The Sting (1973)
(x) Crash (2004)
( ) 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
( ) On the Waterfront (1954)
(x) Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003)
( ) Strangers on a Train (1951)
(x ) Jaws (1975)
( ) City Lights (1931)
( ) Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
( ) The Apartment (1960)
total here: 3
( ) Nuovo cinema Paradiso (1989)
(x) The Wizard of Oz (1939)
( ) Braveheart (1995)
( ) Ran (1985)
(x) Batman Begins (2005)
( ) Blade Runner (1982)
( ) Fargo (1996)
( ) Terminator 2: Judgment Day
total here: 2
Overall total: 169 |
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| Shiva: My Hindu-Deity Lives On To Bring Me Strength... |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|12:26 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
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| | My stomach grumbling | ] |
I am dressed like a pirate. Tonight, I am wearing a bandana, a horizontally-striped shirt and green plaid pants for my pajamas.
Arg, maties.
Perhaps, due to the plaid, I am a Scottish pirate?
Anywho, there are a few little choice “lessons” and “nuggets of knowledge” I have derived from moving back home that I would like to share with you...
The first one is that, while packing, you may feel like taking one big, giant, huge massive box and tossing then entire contents of your desk, drawer, shelves/whatever the hell else you can fit in there all at once, and then to take out your handy-dandy Sharpie marker and write something vague and cutesie on the outside such as "Jess' stuffs" or "Bedroom" on the outside of the box after taping it shut with an entire role of the Duct. Resist this urge. It can only lead to you riffling through one of the many big, massive, giant boxes at midnight after you've been up since seven am and working on about four hours of sleep, praying to God that this, this, THIS is the box that has your computer cable in it so you can go upstairs and feed your addiction for a little while before collapsing into whatever half-assed stress-induced sleep the Sandman finds fitting at the time. Yes, I am a packing genyus. No, this story is NOT derived from truth at all, clearly.
The second thing I learned is that when you come back home after living on your own, you're really not to cool with sharing a toothbrush cup with people you don't plan on swapping saliva with anytime soon... It's just plain creepy. Ehhhhhvvvvahh.
The third and final thing I am willing to admit to tonight, is that I feel much more like a passing guest here than ever before. I'm still having trouble dropping my purse downstairs for the night, as if I’m afraid somebody might steal it, and even more uncomfortable leaving any of my clothes in the bathroom after I leave for fear they will either be taken from me, or that I will seem rude to my hosts. This in and of itself is a very strange, eerie, surreal feeling.
Time to move again, I'd say...? |
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| Grr. |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|07:24 pm] |
Well, it's gone beyond official, for those of you who have been watching.
I really have no interest in starting anything again with him, except maybe friendship if he gets the fuck off his ass and stop being a whiney bitch all the time.
These past few nights have been sheer misery.
The one am phone calls are my only saving grace.
For the first time in far, far, far too long, I AM FEELING WHAT I WANT TO FEEL, not what I feel I should; which is why I feel so terrible that this whole sepparation thing is coming to me too damn easily. He sure as hell is reminding me EXACTLY what drove me crazy the entire eighteen months we were dating.
...I don't know why the hell I am confessing all my feelings to a lap top computer that once I press "save" will display everything I'm currently writing for the entire world to have access to. I guess I just feel utterly and completely alone and want desperately to reach out to this one person that I know I can't because... I just can't risk losing them so soon. I think two days would be a record, even for me. But it's taken so long to get to where we are, both the one and the other, and I don't want things to start slipping again. I don't have any friends in this coutry I can call pour my heart out to, I'm so fucking sick of bothering everyone on this planet with one bitchy comment after another. I miss Rachel so much... I sent her an email a few days ago and I have been going crazy checking my email over and over praying to God she'll answer back.
I know I always question this, but, why the fuck am I posting this.
I'm sorry you guys.
I'm so sorry.
I just... wish...
...this were all over and three months had come and past. |
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| Loser |
[Mar. 12th, 2006|12:09 am] |
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| | <-- What my brother looks like | ] |
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| | Super Smash Brothers (in the background) | ] |
Well, I may not be moving home after all.
Unless Miss Marissa changes her mind, I may be moving to Downtown Portland area for a few months. That would be so nice.
P.S. My brother's 14th birthday kicked ass, what with the candlestick bowling and all. Haw. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|09:51 pm] |
Okay, so maybe not as single as I originally thought...
We'll see. Kinda depends on him.
We shall see. |
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